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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 14:29

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

So, i spoilt her more .

(And it was in our own minds.)

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I always feel very tired after I do some exercises, even after a night's sleep. What's the problem?

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

When she asked me how she looked .

My life is so biszare .

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Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Why do I feel like I want to suck a big dick after injecting meth?

I will be 64.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

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My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

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My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

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My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

It was going to be , some day.

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I had hoped to write a book about this .

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

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One cannot live in the past .

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Have you ever met someone and something seemed so unusual about them but you couldn't put your finger on what it was?

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Why would a person always be so tired?

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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Why did i forgive my father ?

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

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My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Why won't my mom let me come home if I'm homeless?

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

So whats the point in blame.

And i lived it daily.

My girlfriend lied and said she never gave oral until me. She was very skilled. I’m upset with her lying. Do I dump her?

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I was seconnd youngest,

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Who then, do I blame.?

But, we were locked up after school.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I was 9 years of age.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Put me off passion for life!!

I have no regrets .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She was in good health!

Im still living with it.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

She wouldn,t have been !

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

What did i know ?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I don,t even have a pension.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I could never make a relationship work though!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I was very sick at this time too.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I couldn’t, believe it.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Especially a lifetime of it.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Would this be the day?

This is how, and why children get BPD.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I write beautiful poetry .

But it wasn’t much.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Ive learnt so much.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

My family never makes their pension either.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She found it foreign!.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

We were not on the streets..

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

She married twice! .

I was scared of men, in general

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

This is soul school!.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I waited trembling.

But ive been too sick for many years..

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

We all went to grammer schools

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

All the time i was locked up.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Comes on , in middle age.

She loved him until the end.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I think the readers, may guess!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

He knew the spot.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I said to her

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.